A Year Later

For some reason I've been thinking a lot about someone who was a very toxic friend (the word friend used very loosely). She always had "red flags" about me and another one of my friends but whenever asked if she could please elaborate on those all she would say was "I just have red flags" or something stupid like "he rides a motorcycle." She would ask me all the time where she was in my rank of friends and then get upset when I told her that I don't rate my friends (like normal people). She admitted to me that she felt like she was competing with my other friends to be my number one (whatever the hell that means). She was never okay with me being the person I am and always seemed to try to make be what she wanted me to be. There's quite a bit that happened between us - and a little over a year ago I was finally able to cut ties with her. I haven't communicated with her since the day I ended the friendship. She did email me about a month ago, congratulating me on graduating. The email was just as passive aggressive as she was when I knew her. I didn't respond to it. I read it and moved on. Maybe it's that email that has got me thinking about a lot of stuff that happened. Maybe it's a good thing, because I'm realizing how angry I was about the certain things. I didn't realize the anger was still there, but now that I do I can begin to let go. As Elsa from Frozen says "Let it go, let it go/I am one with the wind and sky/Let it go, let it go/You'll never see me cry."