So it's been about two months since I last posted an actual journal here. Things are finally good, mostly thanks to modern medicine. I still have things to do in regard to my mental health before everything settles down and I'll have a better idea of how to go about all that come Tuesday.
My new job is going great. I'm getting more and more comfortable in the teller position. It's a lot to learn and I now understand why it's a 6 month training period for this job. But I'm really liking it. I love the hours (even when I have to be up uber early to open; it's much better than being up uber late because I had close) and it's nice to actually work a full 40 hours each week. Also, this past Monday I got a call from my manager (she was a different branch that day) saying she had some exciting but sad news. A permanent position has opened up at another branch! When I was hired on, I was hired as a "float teller" meaning I had my home branch (the one I've been mainly working at) but I would float between the three branches in my city covering when people were out of town or sick. A month and a half in, someone gave their two weeks and I start at that branch on the 31st. It's bittersweet - I've made some great friends - but it'll be nice to have an actual "home" so to speak. I'll meet everyone at this new branch on Tuesday when I go to get everything in order there (and I'll talk to my new manager about what I need to do so I can finally get everything as it should be).
I also want to write again. Unfortunately, my laptop is on it's last leg and I can no longer print from it (it just doesn't want to communicate with the printer...). I still try to write, but it's really frustrating that there's a new literary magazine launching this January and they're currently reading for it. It's a legit place - they also pay for stories (an excellent sign that they're legit). I have a short story that I want to do another draft of, as well as totally change the ending (I feel like Happy Heather should end the story on a happy note!), but the way I like to revise is to print off a hard copy and mark it up. This sucks that I can't print, but hopefully tonight my brother and I are going to Best Buy and he's going to help me figure out what the hell I need in a new computer (this is all assuming he doesn't blow me off...). So, hopefully this will work out. I'll keep you all posted on this potential publication opportunity that I'll hopefully NOT miss out on.
Other than that, not really whole lot is going on. I've been a tad frustrated mostly because - well, long story short - the guy I was seeing earlier this year ghosted me back in April. I've reread texts and thought through our last few times together and it really doesn't make sense about what happened. I've decided I'm going to call him one more time and just try to figure this out (it's actually the second time in the last two years I've been ghosted - the first time makes some sense, I knew he was pulling away, but this one doesn't). I also think I deserve a goodbye and damn it! I'm going to do what I can get that goodbye! But that's not what really has me frustrated, I'm frustrated because it's one of those rare times in my life words escape me. I just don't know what to say at this moment and I've been trying to figure it out. That's what's frustrated me. But at the same time, I'm glad to know I'm in a good mindset and things won't destroy me anymore.
So, how are you all doing? How's life? I'm going to try to get caught up on the insanity that is my inbox here soon!!