"Yes people only use the Ah if a REALLY BIG STORM is Ah comin or Ah brewin!!"- Sophia Patrillo; The Golden Girls
So, again, it's been over a month since I've updated my journal here. Things are still really good and I think things are going to be getting better. Tonight's been a little rough, but that's mostly due to the fact that I just got home from New York Saturday night and I came down with the cold that always seems to accompany me after being in that city (I've been there three times now and all three times I've gotten a cold right after getting home; I just don't think I have the immune system for that city). So, I'm sick right now and that just always affects me on all levels, physical and emotional.
But all that aside, being gone for a week was so needed and so worth it. I feel like a reset button was hit while I was away and I don't feel like I'm going to lose the last few of my marbles anymore. The mission's trip was great, overall, and I'll probably post my write up of it once I get that done which will hopefully be in the next week or so. While away I definitely had my fire reignited and I feel like I can actually function and do stuff again without an overwhelming want to throat punch people.
Anyways, there are changes coming. And they're good changes. Three in particular I want to talk about right now:
1) I may be continuing my education. I talked about this in my last update, but I now have meetings set up with the college that I would want to go to if I do go back. On Wednesday I'll be talking with both a a professor from the history department as well as someone in the graduate school admissions office. Honestly, from a logistical standpoint, I'm not sure if getting an MA is even possible at this point - mostly due to money - but I want to keep my options open and just know what's out there for me.
2) I'm going to find a new job. While in New York, I really felt the good Lord pressing on me to start looking for a new job - something that's full time and offers benefits and has normal hours. I've been thinking about do so lately but haven't wanted to venture into it because of my commitments with my internship. But, I feel like the time is right. Now, I just need to make the time to start job hunting which I will. While on the topic of work, I'm also planning on cutting back on my hours. Currently I'm getting 30-40 hours a week (well, 39.99) and I'm thinking I'm going to ask if I can cut those back to 20-30. This will free up a lot of my week to be able to write, job search, see my friends and my guy. That's another thing, I'm really sick and tired of not seeing my friends and having a life! I'm too busy, and that's not good.
3) I think I'm going to self-publish a volume of poetry. I've thrown the idea out there from time to time, but this time I think I'm going to. I went through the poems that I started writing in college up to the present last night and complied them all into one document. I've since printed it off and I'm going through and selecting which ones I want in this volume. From there, I'll do some editing and revising on the poems and then self-publish via ebooks (amazon, nook, etc). There will definitely be more on this as I progress with it all, but I'm excited about it all. All I want to do with my life is write and I'm getting really tired of nothing seeming like it's happening (I got another rejection letter Monday night... but that's the life of trying to get published the 'old fashioned' way). I want something to happen, and while I don't want to go all out and self-publish my manuscript quite yet, I do want to start getting my name out there more. Maybe this is the first step
So yeah, that's basically my life at this moment. Just looking at taking the next steps for my future and I think things will continue to be great and very likely become even better soon.